Held by Grace: A Waiting Women's Story of Worthiness (part 3)
I've never truly been in love, but I've fallen for the idea of it. I've always used my mind rather than my heart in relationships—being drawn to the concept of the person and convincing my heart to follow. I never really understood why I did this. Maybe I believed no one else would love me, so I should take what I could get, or perhaps it stemmed from a lesson my mother taught me long ago: to be with someone who loved me more than I loved them. Or maybe I was just incapable of loving someone that way. Whatever the reason, I knew there was a deeper root to uncover, and I realized it was tied to my sense of self-worth. A long time ago, I believed the lie that I didn't deserve love. I had no idea where this belief came from, but it contradicted every declaration of love for me in the Word of God . That lie lingered for years, and I truly thought I would never experience love or get married. I don't think I even fully understood Christ's love for me, but it was a se...