Life on Pursuit

"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a promise fulfilled is like a tree of life" (Proverbs 13:12) A desire unfulfilled can be like an ache in the heart and even sometimes the soul, depending on how long it's delayed; however, when it's fulfilled, it's like a rush of water, satisfying every empty space and softening every tender part.  I am not a stranger to the ache and the questions of when God's promise will be materialized, or the doubt if it ever will be... I've even gotten to the point of, dare I say, "giving God an ultimatum" to either fulfil the desire I know He put on my heart, or take it away because it's too painful to wait any longer. One morning, as I sat up in bed listening to worship music, I felt a word stir in my Spirit that I had to write down in my journal. And the word was this: "And the Lord will satisfy the desires of my heart." I felt led to write it repeatedly until it filled the page, and I knew right the...

I've never truly been in love, but I've fallen for the idea of it. I've always used my mind rather than my heart in relationships being drawn to the concept of the person and convincing my heart to follow. I never really understood why I did this. Maybe I believed no one else would love me, so I should take what I could get, or perhaps it stemmed from a lesson my mother taught me long ago: to be with someone who loved me more than I loved them. Or maybe I was just incapable of loving someone that way. Whatever the reason, I knew there was a deeper root to uncover, and I realized it was tied to my sense of self-worth. A long time ago, I believed the lie that I didn't deserve love. I had no idea where this belief came from, but it contradicted every declaration of love for me in the Word of God . That lie lingered for years, and I truly thought I would never experience love or get married. I don't think I even fully understood Christ's love for me, but it was a se...

“ God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill? ( Numbers 23:19)” …  “ Was I going to trust God and the promises He had spoken over my life, or would I surrender to fear simply because I was weary from the wait?” The Season of Waiting I posed this question to myself as I sat alone in the car, tears streaming down my face after making the difficult decision to firmly close the door on a budding relationship. Deep down, I knew I had done the right thing. I had chosen obedience over impulse, discernment over desire. But it still hurts. In that moment, the choice wasn’t just between faith and fear, it was between believing that God’s silence still carried purpose, or letting delay convince me He had forgotten. Waiting tests the soul, but it also reveals what anchors it. I wasn’t grieving the loss of the person, not really. We had only just met while I was on vacation. What I mo...

"But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint (Isaiah 40:31)." Have you ever wished you could just rise up above everything and everyone and fly up to the sky like the birds where there seem to be no obstacles and where literally there is no limit? I've had that feeling, especially when stuck in traffic (lol),  wishing that I could fly to get to where  I am going faster without delays, but sadly life is not like that and sometimes we just have to wait.  Waiting is something that is unavoidable in life but it teaches us a great lesson about patience. It is also an action that you continually engage in if you are a believer of Christ and waiting on the promise that he will come back for his church. For this reason, waiting is  something that is not new when it comes to  those in the bible and a prime example is Abraham who waited 25 years t...