Held by Grace: A Waiting Woman's Story of Trust and Surrender (Part 2)
Says your God.
"Speak comfort to Jerusalem and cry out to her,
that her warfare is ended,
that her iniquity is pardoned;
for she has received from the Lord's hand
double for all her sins"
(Isaiah 40:1).
Relief washed over me like a tide. As she spoke of God fulfilling the deepest desires of my heart, tears began to fall—hers and mine. I felt so undeserving, like I had been overlooked and discounted. But in that sacred moment, I knew: God had seen me. He had heard the cries I hadn’t dared to speak aloud. And He answered.
It was a time of pure grace—quiet, holy, and wrapped in the arms of unconditional love.
It was a moment that was shared between my sister and me—one I’ll never forget. In my last blog, I spoke of meeting someone while on vacation, but beneath the surface, my heart was in turmoil, and I carried it silently.
Then, in the stillness of an early morning, my sister entered my room, praying. Her words poured out like water over dry ground—speaking truths she couldn’t have known, whispering things only God and I had shared.
It was God’s way of saying, I heard you.
In that sacred space, grace wrapped itself around me. Not just as a concept, but as a presence—gentle, knowing, and deeply personal. It was the kind of beauty that lingers, the type that doesn't leave you the same.
My testimony is this: I am a woman held by grace, despite feeling most forgotten and disgraced... It was God's love that met me in the unlikeliest of places. Shame tried to overwhelm me; my heart was frustrated with the weight of waiting. Waiting on God's promises and trusting that He is leading me to the promised land. No matter what I felt, no matter what I've seen or not, I chose to walk faithfully with Him hand in hand, knowing that it is all a part of His grand plan. It is a journey of surrender and trust in the truest form, which reminds me of two instances in the bible: the scene with Jesus in Gethsemane praying to the Father and the time when the children of Israel were in the wilderness.
Waiting seasons often feel like spiritual limbo—uncertain, uncomfortable, and sometimes unbearable. But it’s in these moments that surrender becomes not just an act of faith, but a lifeline.
In the Garden of Gethsemane, Jesus faced the ultimate moment of waiting. The cross loomed ahead, betrayal was unfolding, and His closest friends couldn’t stay awake to support Him. He was fully aware of the agony to come, yet He didn’t rush ahead or resist the process. Instead, He knelt and prayed:
“Father, if You are willing, take this cup from Me; yet not My will, but Yours be done.” — Luke 22:42
What Gethsemane Teaches Us About Waiting
Waiting is not wasted: Jesus didn’t skip the garden. He lingered there, prayed there, wrestled there. Waiting is where transformation begins.
Surrender is strength: Saying “not my will” isn’t weakness—it’s courage. It’s choosing faith over fear, obedience over outcome.
God meets us in the garden: In our most vulnerable moments, God doesn’t abandon us. He strengthens us, just as He sent an angel to comfort Jesus (Luke 22:43).
🙏 Trusting God in the Wilderness
“And in the wilderness… you saw how the Lord your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place. In spite of this, you did not trust in the Lord your God, who went ahead of you on your journey.” —Deuteronomy 1:31–33
The wilderness can feel endless—dry, uncertain, and full of questions. It’s in these seasons that trusting God becomes a choice, not just a feeling. Even when the promises seem distant, we must decide: will we trust the One who carries us, or let doubt steal what He’s already prepared? The process of waiting is never easy, and God has had to carry me through moments just like the one I describe at the beginning of this blog. There have been times when I have felt that I have discounted myself from the promise of marriage due to doubt or feelings of unworthiness, but again, God's grace and mercy have kept me in the wilderness of waiting, and will continue to do so for you, too.
I'll leave you with the song "Promises," which I have been singing since I went on vacation. It reminds me to put my trust in Jesus because He is faithful, and although it feels like there is a delay or like the promise will never come, He will never let us down. His promises are "Yes and Amen" (1 Corinthians 1:20-22).
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